The End of the Anna Story???
August 26, 2002, 6:32 p.m.

Grrr...I couldn't get online yesterday to write when I first got the news, but...I suppose now will work as well as later

Well, I'd originally planned on titling this "The Current Anna Story" because I didn't think it would ever really be finished as long as Anthony and I were together...

The goddess is engaged. And has been for the last 2 1/2 months. She didn't tell Anthony until he was out there for the trip. Anthony called me to tell me about it late, late on Saturday night (technically Sunday morning). "I wouldn't have come out to see her if I'd known. I don't think it would be appropriate." I was thrilled and angry and in shock and...just a wild cascade of emotions that I didn't know how to deal with...

Let me just say that last night, after we got back from the airport at about 11:30 or so, Anthony and I had this HUGE, long talk where I actually expressed myself, told him what I was thinking, how I was feeling, discussed his comment (Did I write about that comment?) on the phone in which he, essentially, indicated that he still blamed me for everything that happened in Colorado on the horrible night I first met Anna. Pointed out to him that he had ample opportunity to tell her about us before we ever went out there. Explained to him that that night HURT like hell, just, all kinds of things. I'm very satisfied with the results of the talk. I'll probably write more at a later date, but...for now, things are going very well. I ended up staying home from work today (this is getting to be a very bad habit, that's 3 Mondays in a row!) and just snuggling with him all day. Oh, did it feel good. I didn't realize how empty my bed felt with him gone.

Last comment for right now...I think I can deal with the Anna thing now. Between writing about it and talking it out with my grandmother and Anthony...we talked a lot today. Usually, whenever he says her name, I get all tense and...well, generally want to just curl up into a ball and cry. Not today...how long is this going to last? I don't know...but I do know that I finally got a HUGE number of things off my chest and that I feel like we finally got a lot of things settled that we'd never really discussed.

Today is a very good day. More will be forthcoming, but not right now. I have to take care of my car. Which means finding a service center since I haven't had any problems with this car before. So...off for now. Things are looking VERY good.

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