Just a bit blue
Friday, Sept. 26, 2003, 12:53 p.m.

I'm a bit down in the mouth, today. Nothing major, really, just I don't handle rejection well. See, I've mentioned before (and am too lazy to find and link it) that since my office has been moved, I've been in a larger office with several other women. Initially, there was a lot of friction between them and me, because, well, they didn't really want me here. But I thought that had pretty much died down, that these ladies had come to see that I wasn't threatening or eavesdropping on their confidential stuff. And then today there was a "space planner" (??Can I have that job please? Get paid a boatload of money to come and figure out the best way to rearrange furniture? Hey, I do that at my own house ALL the time!) in the office trying to figure out how to rearrange the cubicles, tables, etc. And several of the women were campaigning to have my space eliminated as a cubicle and turned into something else, a conference room of sorts. Which, ridiculously enough, hurts my feelings. I know it's not anything personal. They all like me as a person. That's not the problem. The problem is that, professionally, they don't think I ought to be here because, let's face it, social workers deal with some of the most private and confidential things in a person's life... I understand why, I really do. But... it still hurts my feelings. I realize that's pretty childish, but all the same, I feel rejected and unwelcome. Neither of those emotions do I deal well with... So excuse me for being a bit blue today. Thanks...

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