What really happened--Part 7
Monday, Mar. 03, 2003, 2:59 p.m.

Part 7 of the ongoing saga:
Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5
Part 6

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Larry,

I've been promising to write this letter for a long time, now, but haven't been able to. I can't even tell you how many times I've started to write this and ended up not knowing what to write, or how to write it, and just stopping. There were too many things running through my head, too many things I needed to sort out and pray about.

I think I can finally write to you, now. So many things to write about...the first thing is the apology I owe you. For what I exaggerated about, and to some extent lied about, happening, I am more sorry than I can say, more sorry than you can know. I'm sorry for all the division this has caused and for all the hurtful things that have been said. I'm sorry for both what I have caused and what I have done. If I could take back the things I said that never happened, I would in a heartbeat. I know that doesn't change anything, or fix anything, or make any of this better in any way. But for all of that, I know that I do owe you an apology. I am so sorry for that.

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Hmmmm... that's the easy part. Now... how do I go about saying what did happen without being mean or hurtful? And I know, to a certain extent, I do have a right to be angry, mean, and hurtful. But the thing is, I'm trying to heal a rift here... and in order to do that, I can't just bury these things that are rotting and festering or it will only erupt even more later. Gak! I'm so frustrated...

So few words to write and yet such a hard thing to do... I didn't even have this much trouble writing my essays to get into college!

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