Too Many Questions
Friday, Oct. 24, 2003, 2:41 p.m.

My daddy's going to be there. Just him. I don't even know what I'm going to say or do when I see him. He flies in tonight. My Uncle Tommy is picking him up at the airport somewhere around 7. I want to drive down there now at 90 miles an hour. I want to hide in my apartment and not go down at all. How do I face him after the letter was returned? I don't know what to do... Do I say anything about the letter? Do I bring it down with me, to show him, in case no one let him see it? Do I want to face the heartbreak if a) he already has seen it can't or won't believe me, or b) refuses to talk about it, deal with it, or think about it? Should I just not mention it, and let him deal with the grief of losing his mother? Should I bring it up and pursue it? Should I tell him that we're planning on being out in Colorado for Christmas? Do I ask if I can come see them? Or if they'll come see me? I just don't know... Far too many questions.

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